love me again?

where do i take my love when you didn't give it shelter? roam around the street we use to sneak to steal kisses that felt like freedom on the tongue but forbidden from the sight of others? or maybe it was just me who was blinded by the colour of your world. the rest of it was black and white. you were my fucking rainbow. some days you made me feel like i'm the love song of your life filled with great metaphors of stars. and the others were so dark, you never even tried to give my misery company, always run away. your fears are great, you let them win. i'm always quite concern that i couldn't effect your heart like you did to mine. make me feel safe, not like home but like your love, then broke my shelter that's taking too much space in your heart. i was a little much for you, always. love(d) you a little too much. care for you a little too much. worry about you a little too much. but what can I do, my love? i always tend to give, give and give because no one ever choose me. i search for you in everything , just to find my love piled up in poetries. and i never asked you to give me anything. i love(d) you unconditionally, care for you unconditionally, worry about you unconditionally. and when you love someone unconditionally, you don't want them, you want their happiness. you don't try to hurt them just because they unconsciously once hurted you. you want to protect them. you want to understand their deepest scars. and their fear that they held so high are pushing you apart. you want to turn their fears into faith. their rain into rainbow. their winter into summer sun. and maybe we would meet in another life and you would be brave enough to let me love you. brave enough to love me crazy. or maybe in this life only you're mine and i'm yours but time is none of ours. it will run, and flow like river and we will still stood here frozen from the spell of our love. you said "cosmos", yeah i believe in the universe. i hope the universe hears my prayers, my deepest desires. for your dreams. mine? oh you're my dream. and i know the distance between us is miles and more, but this is the closest i've ever felt to someone. i wish to be the last name on your lips. the last muse to your artist. the last shoulder to lean. the last body to kiss. the last love story you want to recite to the stars laying beside me. the last soul to miss. i know im not your first, but oh to be your last love, i'll die and I know my love is strong like the lingering perfume on my skin, it'll haunt you when i'm gone . i hope you'll believe yourself one day even if i hope less and you'll remember what i said, "believe in one thing, i won't go away". you'll make your wish. you'll find flashes of me infront of your eyes.