EPIPHANY

"I'm not totally mad at you. I'm just sad. You're all locked up in that little world of yours, and when I try knocking on the door, you just sort of look up for a second and go right back inside."  - Haruki Murakami, Norwegian Wood  sometimes i dream a lucid dream carrying all the worries i have with me and you should know that home doesn't feel like home until you come come to my world with rays of sunshine and white bougainvillea in your hands those stepping stones you walked the breath you hold all these times i can guess all your nights spent alone were as grey as mine all the fight you fought made you fearless with time you must have felt like someone who's not loved by  as a child longing for that one ray of light and then suddenly disappearing into the dark trying to escape the home that never felt like one making up a world inside your mind where you lay under the tranquil azure sky cumulus cloud spreading by in your mind with memories

ps: these pictures of mine are just an illusion, i'm actually a mess (sick and tired and kinda sad) rn in my life, but when it comes to love my pen won't stop to write (lol). love is acceptance. love is understanding them, even when they find it hard to understand themselve. love is simple, though may take you through a road of complications. love is kindness, forgiveness, warmness, even craziness. love feels warm and at the same time it is the autumnal breeze that creates goosebumps on your skin. the effect love have- co-existence of different shades of feelings. love comes with difficulties for sure, that's why it is powerful, according to me with great power comes great difficulties. love is honesty. love is the truth you can't hide from me like you hide from yourself. love is unconditional, unreasonable, undeniable. love is a lot of things. oh they say love is happiness, but happiness is temporary, love isn't. love is multidimensional. there must be a p

     d ust collected in rainbow dreams     have faith in you     but not destiny     stars answered back     that things that shine     are meant to stay far     i close my eyes     for i have fear    why the stars let us meet     if we aren't written together     and i still tried    give a hand to hold    and love to grow    but our    love apart

remember once you said it's difficult for you to understand why love songs are so glorified, you don't understand them, they don't feel realistic to your cynical mind. but i'm a hopeless romantic at heart, i feel words of music better than the words of my own heart. you think there's no need for love songs in this world, they're not a necessity. but my love, what if loving you is breathing for me? what if my chest feel heavy, but your ignorance is a bliss? what if a girl crying her heart out for she wishes he stayed in the arms of the boy who makes her smile? cruel right? the power love puts in the hands of a lover. at times it's nothing but sound of rain filling my empty mind. it's love song that brings season of blossoms in view. I wish to simplify love songs for you. and i know you'll listen to my talk. please be kind to yourself, there's a good side to this face. there's always our part to do, but you can't mend broken hea