yepp that's meee in 1st grade lol, which was 13 years ago btw but com'on she was the rockstar man!! lovee herr, also the picture quality is bad because it's a photo i took from my phone of the school magazine in which it was published. a reincarnation of my childhood dreams knocking at the door but i try to self assure that my dreams today are the same just different perspect & way now when I look back at those eyes holding hope dreams of growing older and wiser i feel ashamed sometimes maybe i disappointed her her dreams were larger than life and mine's are just finding ways to survive but they say you always carry your inner child she's still alive in my soul her dreams are still mine to hold soft in my fist soft yet so strong i want to smile like her again dance like her again gain the courage to cry like her again without fearing it'll make me look weak break my cold exterior of glass the wings you...
i smile through my pain, as the sun shines even after the rain. i can't wear my rage in my face. it's not what my mother would like, nor my father. this world will call me a mad woman, and what a shame she went mad! i will hide my anger behind my fake torelence. i hate fakeness. i hate to make those fake face. still i've to, because no one likes a mad women. sometimes i live with the fear if i'm being rude to someone or being too polite. either way i'll be at fault. i'll be critised for my good & bad equally. if i' m rude, then fingers will be raised towards me "how can she behave like that? a woman is made of love and made to serve love". the world have always taken too much love from a women and left her heart hollow. and if she's too polite, than she's definitely faking it because no one's this nice. she's just putting up a show to get love. oh now she wants love, what a terrible demand! too much to ask. too much, always a li...
sometimes i wonder what the pages of that dairy so beautifully holds within the star filled papers and the pen from which love flows he may writes about his fears, vulnerabilities, that the human i have painted on my canvas is a masterpiece but his heart is in pieces and the paints of my crimsons are fading or he may write the secret about how he collects stars from others eyes and accumulates them in his own how he is a thief in disguise and how he has stolen my shine and now i love to reflect his on mine. i wonder if he had ever even tried to pen a poetry for me or just a piece of his heart on papers and spent all night reminiscing about how the scent of those pages reminds him of our memories the laugh,the cries the love that will never die even beyond our existence. i wonder how my lover's dairy really looks like from inside i wonder if it is just the reflection of him or my vision of him through translucent papers is it just lik...
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