sometimes i wonder what the pages of that dairy so beautifully holds within the star filled papers and the pen from which love flows he may writes about his fears, vulnerabilities, that the human i have painted on my canvas is a masterpiece but his heart is in pieces and the paints of my crimsons are fading or he may write the secret about how he collects stars from others eyes and accumulates them in his own how he is a thief in disguise and how he has stolen my shine and now i love to reflect his on mine. i wonder if he had ever even tried to pen a poetry for me or just a piece of his heart on papers and spent all night reminiscing about how the scent of those pages reminds him of our memories the laugh,the cries the love that will never die even beyond our existence. i wonder how my lover's dairy really looks like from inside i wonder if it is just the reflection of him or my vision of him through translucent papers is it just lik...
where do i take my love when you didn't give it shelter? roam around the street we use to sneak to steal kisses that felt like freedom on the tongue but forbidden from the sight of others? or maybe it was just me who was blinded by the colour of your world. the rest of it was black and white. you were my fucking rainbow. some days you made me feel like i'm the love song of your life filled with great metaphors of stars. and the others were so dark, you never even tried to give my misery company, always run away. your fears are great, you let them win. i'm always quite concern that i couldn't effect your heart like you did to mine. make me feel safe, not like home but like your love, then broke my shelter that's taking too much space in your heart. i was a little much for you, always. love(d) you a little too much. care for you a little too much. worry about you a little too much. but what can I do, my love? i always tend to give, give and give because no one ever ch...
yepp that's meee in 1st grade lol, which was 13 years ago btw but com'on she was the rockstar man!! lovee herr, also the picture quality is bad because it's a photo i took from my phone of the school magazine in which it was published. a reincarnation of my childhood dreams knocking at the door but i try to self assure that my dreams today are the same just different perspect & way now when I look back at those eyes holding hope dreams of growing older and wiser i feel ashamed sometimes maybe i disappointed her her dreams were larger than life and mine's are just finding ways to survive but they say you always carry your inner child she's still alive in my soul her dreams are still mine to hold soft in my fist soft yet so strong i want to smile like her again dance like her again gain the courage to cry like her again without fearing it'll make me look weak break my cold exterior of glass the wings you...
Comments
Post a Comment